Have You Ever
By: S.P
Have you ever lived my life?
Spent one minute in my shoes?
If you haven’t, then tell me why
You judge me as you do?
Have you ever woken up in the morning
Wondering if this was your last day on earth?
Have you ever left your house
Unsure if you would ever return?
Have you ever felt such pain
That you cried yourself to sleep at night?
Have you ever considered suicide
As the only way out?
Have you ever sat beneath the stars
Hoping God will hear?
Have you ever wanted to protect
Your friends and everyone in sight?
Have you ever tried to hide yourself
Behind the things you say?
Have you ever covered up guilt
By doing a good deed?
Have you ever had to play “mom” to your siblings
Because your step mother was so drugged up all the time?
Have you ever been raped by your father
Because that is how he showed his love for you?
Have you ever buried your children
Because of bad choices you made?
Have you ever had to look into your child’s sad eyes
Knowing he just seen you get beat by a man he loves?
Have you ever had your best friend
Start experimenting with crack cocaine and change?
Have you ever seen a friend drive away
After doing way too many drugs and no sleep?
Have you ever felt so all alone
Like you don’t have not one single friend?
Have you ever cried your eyes out
Truly believing everyone hates you?
Have you ever had to choose between
Your mother or a healthy life?
Have you ever wanted help so badly
That you begged to stay incarcerated?
Have you ever lived my life?
Spent one night in my bed, trying to sleep?
If you haven’t, then tell me why
You judge me as you do!